“Day 105”

So today I did something that I didn’t think I could do. I have had a phobia of movie theaters, for reasons I cannot fully explain. I went and saw Shazam (opening weekend) in the movie theater. That’s right I went to the movies. My boyfriend and I got up and wanted to go to lunch and a movie. I looked up online and there was a dine in movie theater not far from us. So we went! It was a 2 for 1! I have to tell you if you have a dine in theater near you it is so worth it! The seats are electric recliners and so comfortable. You get a tray and a server. It really is the way to go! My hands were clammy and trembling the whole drive to the theater. I was thinking of the ways to get out of it but fought with myself on it because I really did want to go. We got the movies and I felt a little better after I sat down for a minute and took in my surroundings. We ordered our food which was so tasty we got brisket fries, I got a burger and my boyfriend got a steak & shrimp bowl. I let my food settle for about 45 minutes and decided I wanted something sweet. I ordered an Oreo milkshake. I drank it so fast. It was so good, it had the perfect amount of Oreos! About 10 minutes later my stomach starts to rumble. I ran to the bathroom. I got sick. I was fighting back a panic attack. My biggest fear was happening I am in a public bathroom, sick, and far away from home so I had to use the restroom there. I immediately wanted to leave I was so worked up. My hands were trembling and I had thoughts racing through my head. Instead I decided to sit in the bathroom for about 5 minutes longer and breathe. I went back into the theater and my boyfriend asked me if I was okay. I wanted to scream out, “I want to leave. NOW!” but I didn’t I told him my stomach was upset but I was okay. I was determined to stay to the end of the movie. I didn’t want to be defeated and I wasn’t! I stayed all the way to the end of the movie. Yes, it was kind of a hard 30 minutes but I have lived through worse 30 minutes. When I walked out of the theater I was so relieved but also so proud. I did something I never thought I would do again. With that being said I don’t think I will start going to the movies all the time but the next time I do I will hopefully be less anxious about it! Also go see Shazam, it was great!

Photo by Felix Mooneeram on Unsplash

One thought on ““Day 105”

  1. Grannie and Grandpa

    You made a choice NOT to be defeated by for fear. You fought and WON! We’re very proud of you for persevering! Should this situation happen again, you already know you have what it takes (courage and experience), to conquer it.

    Love you!!!

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